met some fake friends who I hadn’t seen in a long time.
procrastination. fear. regret. guilt. let down.
struggled with my gremlin the whole damn day.
he told me I wasn’t worth it…was a fake, a hoax, a phoney. taunted and teased…incessantly.
had detox brain fog that left me unsteady.
unstable. confused. worried
struggled more than I had in a while.
and wasn’t totally sure what to do about it.
found no solace in my yoga practice.
instead i felt disconnected, disheartened, lost and loney.
missed “home” more than I had in a while.
mom’s house, worcester, MYoga, my family, my friends.
fell into old patterns I thought I had left behind.
ones I thought I’d never see again.
was not my best day.
and it also wasn’t my worst.
and today I started anew.